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Friday, March 2, 2012


I'm not happy in my own skin.  I love my life and, overall, I'm happy.  I'm just not comfortable.  I don't like the way I look anymore - I don't like having to buy new clothes because my old ones don't fit anymore.  I haven't been to the gym on a regular basis in a few years now, and I need to do something to change that.
I hated being in my bikini in Hawaii because I felt like a beached whale.

I am going to be in a wedding at the end of April (Shannon's), I'm going to NYC in May, I'm going to be in another wedding at the end of June (Pam's), and I'm going to Chicago in July.  At some point, hopefully within the next year, Steve and I are going to be using our free plane tickets to hit up a tropical beach... I don't want the same feeling for all of these things as I had in Hawaii.

I can't explain why it's so easy for me to hate the way I look and then drive right past the gym on my way home from work every day.  In the past 3 weeks, I've been to the gym 4 times.  I know that is not a lot, but it is something.  Something is better than nothing and hopefully it's the beginning of lots more visits to come.

I'm not sure how else to motivate myself to do something.

Yesterday my friend Abbie emailed our little dinner group of girls and asked if we can do weekly weigh-in's with each other.  I JUMPED at the chance.  While I'm a firm believer in the number on a scale not meaning shit unless you feel different and your clothes fit different... I will do it to make myself accountable.  This group of girls are all a part of the June wedding (bride included), so it's a perfect excuse.  I'm a huge fan of competition, so I'm hoping that looking at it as I'm going to lose more weight than these bitches this week I'll be more successful.  On top of that, if I can get in the habit of the gym by then, hopefully I can stick with it even after we've met our deadline.

Our first weigh-in was this morning (apparently we weight less when we wake up?  who knows).  Frankly I'm embarrassed to share my weight with you, so I'm not going to.  I'm keeping a spreadsheet in my gDocs so I can report weight lost each week.  The girls and I have decided to not share our weights, but to report that we've weighed-in and then next Friday we'll report what we've lost.

If you're still checking in and reading here, help me be accountable!  My plan is to report here each week as well... I'll never share my weight with you, but I will tell you how many times I've been to the gym and I will tell you how much I've lost.

While I do plan to adjust my diet as well, for now, the gym is my main focus - once I can get back to that I'll start focusing on eating habits.  I'm trying to get in the frame of mind that I need to eat less... so I'll just start there.

One step at a time and I know I can do this.

Blah - I need help though, so hopefully this will be the help I need!  Wish me luck!


Dana said...

I don't know how much help I can be. I'm in the same boat. I have my eating under control the way I want it to be but I can't get myself up and exercise because I hate it so badly. Being in a weigh-in group should give you motivation and accountability and I'll be your cheerleader as much as possible rooting you on!

Deidre said...

Good luck! They say it takes 15 days of doing something everyday to make it habit...That's my only helpful tip - not that helpful?

Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

Iz and I have been talking a lot about being more accountable with what we eat, how we exercise and just our health in general. We've both been majorly slacking on eating well and, well, neither of us gets exercise (aside from our jobs and hey, I figure all the running I do at work must count for SOMETHING, right?)

We both decided that once he's out here at the end of March we're going to actively work on just living healthier. I don't want to worry about numbers or anything like that but I know I'm not exactly happy with my weight so I just want to do things to end up on the healthier side of life.

ANYWAY. Stick with it. I know you'll feel better and self love (as cheesy as it sounds) is always the best thing.

Murdock's mama said...

Ugh! I feel ya sis! This post baby stuff SUCKS! I may be back to my number but I sure don't look like I did prebaby. I was just thinking I MUST start doing somethign about it!

Smart Ass Sara said...

Maybe try finding exercise that you like? I really liked going to the Zumba class held at one of the schools twice a week. It's people who are too lazy to go to a gym but want to do something. That hour FLIES by and it's actually really fun and it's always changing. So maybe if you found a class you really like, you'll feel more motivated to go?

Gringation Cancun said...

Hurray! Glad I'm not the only one on the weight loss train anymore :)

The accountability thing is GREAT. That's why I have to go to the nutritionist... I need a skinny lady telling me when I misbehave haha It helps keep me in line.

Have fun at the gym and try to take some classes. If you plan on dieting, I'd recommend that sooner rather than later, especially if you want to beat the other bridesmaids ;) It's much easier and faster to lose weight with diet than with exercise. (Obviously doing both is the best, though.)

I think you look pretty great already, and I can't wait to hear how the whole thing goes.

Nichole said...

Pssh, can I RELATE. Hopefully your group can help motivate you. I have been on EVERY tracking site out there, my one I just signed up for and like the most is My Fitness Pal. I like it b/c it suggests how many cals/carbs/fat; all of that that you should have daily to lose weight. Then when you enter all your info for the day, it tells you things like, "if you continue like this, you'll weigh X lbs in so many weeks", it helps motivate me. Good Luck!

Kristi said...

I need to do something about myself too, I have turned into a complete fatty in the past year and a half yet I haven't done a damn thing about it. I desperately need to lose a ton of weight also and could use some motivation!


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