I Suck

I'm extremely pissed of at myself.  Not only am I not blogging (and rarely commenting) but my June Photo Hunt is a fucking disaster!  I usually try and keep my language clean in my blog (even though it's far from clean in real life)... but I'm just angry.  I could point fingers at everything going on in my life.. but what is there?  Sure I've been hitting the gym on a regular basis, sure I had a friend pass and it's probably hitting me harder than I even realize, sure this month has been pretty rainy.. in all honesty, I just have zero motivation.  I was gung ho this photo hunt when I printed my list... somewhere along the line I lost it.

In all honesty, I feel like I'm losing more than just my motivation for the June hunt.

I really hate negativity, like seriously, my 'friends' on Facebook who continuously post negative status'.. get hidden.  So this post will probably piss me off more than necessary, but I feel that is where I'm headed.  Sometimes life just gets in the way...

I really don't know what's going on in my feeble little mind.

Random enough for ya?

I need to make my life more organized.  I want my room and space to be cute (I am a girl after all).  I want my own home to make cute.  I want my own kitchen, with a dishwasher that works, so I don't have to ruin my nails washing them by hand.  I want to be able to afford flowers everyday to set in my dining room.  I want want want!

Ugh, I feel out of sorts.  Can anyone help me?

Long as I'm ranting.. who talks on their cell phone at the gym?!  Seriously.  I understand that technology is everywhere and phones have music players on them, so I can deal with that.  The other day though, I was on the elliptical machine for 20 minutes, a few machines down was a lady on her phone.. This lady was there when I jumped on and dismounted about 5 minutes from my time expiring; on her phone the ENTIRE time I was on the machine.  Her 'workout' was not pointless.  She wasn't sweating, she wasn't breathing hard; why come to the gym?  Why change your clothes?  Why distract other people with your pointless phone call?  Not everyone works out with earbuds in.  In all honesty... you can't very well get a good workout when you're on the phone, right?

On a positive note: I am hitting the gym on the regular, go me.

Also, anyone locally (aka willing to travel to MN for a day) interested in a little blogger get-together?  My girl Krysten over at After 'I do' is trying to plan something for August.  It looks like either the 21st or 22nd... I think in the Twin Cities Metro area, but those details have yet to be worked out.  Let me know if you're interested and I can give you the details as they are made.

Sorry that I suck lately, I'm sure I'll snap soon (for good or bad remains to be seen).